Today I had another Psych appointment.  I have been under the care of a Psychiatrist since my second stay in hospital with the hospital/local Mental Health Clinic.  I also have a Social worker here as well – she is my case manager so to speak.  On top of this I also have SIDS and Kids [...]

I’d be lying if I said, right at this moment, that I love my body.  I would be lying to you all, and lying to myself. The truth is, I don’t. Not right now.  It’s been a hard year.  Physically and emotionally.  My body has conceived a baby and grown a baby.  It has hugged [...]

You may have heard a little bit about Garnier BB (warning.. site has sound. ugh!).  It’s been on the TV, on Facebook Ads, and most certainly across twitter.  I was fortunate enough to get to try some, and while I was not asked to write this post, I thought I should because I really Really [...]

No. Not THAT sort of house keeping.  Bloggy House Keeping. I need to sort some of the stuff out on this blog.  I have been reading all of the posts from people like Where’s My Glow, Kate Says Stuff (I mean, Picklebums!), Yay For Home et al about what they took away from the Pro [...]

I’ve been slack with Wordless Wednesday and Thankful Thursday.. but catching up with Things I know /Flog Ya Blog Friday… Today I know a few things, but there is only one I am going to talk about. Today I know it has been one year since I discovered Avery was in my womb and in [...]

It’s coming up to birthday season.  Yes. The Divine Miss Tara is about to turn 6 in a month and I am a little very shell shocked. SIX?! So, for a while the requests were coming in.. Rainbow party Princess party Unicorn party another Ballet Party a movie party a party of all of the [...]

I get called strong quite a lot. I can understand why people think that I am strong, but sometimes I wonder if I really am. I don’t feel strong.  Not at all.  I sometimes feel as though the weight of everything pushes my feet so heavy into the earth my knees start to buckle and [...]

I’ve been on a blogging hiatis.  My mind has been in a tumble dryer this week and I’ve felt more than a little lost.  The words couldn’t come out. Tara and I both had some counselling at SIDS and Kids NSW.  I picked up some more reading material from others who have travelled this path.  [...]

Since Avery died I have had very few dreams that I remember. Those that I do remember seem to be hugely significant in some way or another. Last night I had a dream about my baby brother.  David is 7 years younger than me.  If I was to fall pregnant in the next 6 months, [...]

If you follow me on twitter you will no doubt know that I really really want to go to the Digital Parents Conference in March 2012.  The loss of Avery opened my world to a very big and beautiful, caring and uplifting world of Bloggers. Some of the bloggers have truly carried me along on [...]