Say it out loud, so it is not so scary. Post Natal Depression. PND, or for those playing along in the states, Post Partum Depresion (PPD). I’ve been diagnosed with it, as well as anxiety… on top of the grief. I completed the Edinburgh Postnatal Depression Score (EPDS) at my GP’s office and scored pretty [...]

I haven’t announced this here yet, properly at least, but it is about time I did.  A lot of cogs need to start turning! I have spoken about wanting to go to the Digital Parents Conference before and, well, I got a Ticket and now I am going. But… to top it all off… I [...]

I cried and cried and cried. His hand and feet casts came home. And I went over the edge. I used alcohol as a way to make myself unravel.  Not proud. Not bragging. Not ashamed. Just sad. I saw my psychiatrist, who then referred me back to my doctor (who I saw the day before), [...]

I am inviting all Australian based Bereavement Support Organisatons to submit their links and details in the comments below.  After conversations with midwives, doctors, bereaved parents, counsellors, supportive friends and families I realise that hospitals, families and friends don’t know what to offer, what to say, what to supply when a baby dies. No parent [...]

It is no secret that I feel cursed.  I have spoken of it before. Every time I am around pregnant women – especially heavily pregnant women – I feel sweaty, heart-trapped, wrong.  I feel like a flashing neon sign reminding everyone what can go wrong. What does go wrong sometimes.  I struggle.  REALLY struggle. The [...]

Today marks 6 months Avery.  No wonder the tears have been ravishing me over and over.  They come quickly and fiercely, and then they are gone. I cannot believe that this time, 12 months ago, I was 15 weeks pregnant and telling the world you would be joining us in 6 months.  So much happens [...]

The nausea, the emotional rollercoaster, the headache. Sore boobs and ready tears.  All signs – good signs – that my baby is thriving. —————————– That bundle of dread in my chest drops into my stomach and my heart takes on a mind of its own. I look, over and over and over again.  There is [...]

I come back down the hall listening to the warm and jovial chatter in the light and airy room.  It’s been such a wonderful afternoon talking about Avery, his friends and friendships with some wonderful women. I’ve been buoyed by the laughter and I am in a great place. As I look to the table [...]

I managed to weasel my way into the domain space of Mrs Woog, so why don’t my followers head on over to her blog and give some love, while I welcome all her followers who are stopping by here.. Hespera’s Garden at Woogsworld Hello new visitors! come say hello! Drop me a line, spread a [...]

Coming around the corner, I see the crow jumping across the road, darting between the rays of sun peaking through the shadowy trees. “Bloody Crow” I think.  My foot comes off the accelerator and I cruise through the tree lined road, not wanting to hit the black bird. But then my eyes catch him, as [...]