There is a dream, loitering in the back of my mind.  I see it when I close my eyes.  So vivid I could touch it.  I can see it in snippets from the bare bones of the idea in its infancy, to the fruition and unveiling of something finished.  I can see the people visiting, [...]

Christmas is coming.  I’ve not done a thing. Nothing, Nada, Zip. So, instead of rushing out and buying random stuffs for people and then loosing track of everything, I thought I would start a new linky! Avery is not here, and while I will still buy him presents this year, I won’t be able to [...]

Dear Avery, It has been 4 months.  4 months with you in my heart but not in my arms. It’s been easier, but not without trials.  I guess that will always be the way, though. It can be so hard, being the mother of a Spirit Baby.  I can’t share things I want to share, [...]

Hello my dearest wee boy. How I have missed you this month. A turbulent crazy month of ups and downs, swings and roundabouts. 3 months.  Where on earth does it go?  Time, that is.  It’s such a foreign concept to me now.  I used to be able to grasp time and passing really well – [...]

On Friday we went back to the hospital to have our post-baby check up. Except, of course, mine was a bit different. To start with it was with the head Obstetrician, the Registrar Obstetrician and the Renal Specialist.  I know I have not shared much about Avery’s Birth, Death and our stay in hospital here [...]