If you have known me for a long time, you will know my thoughts on babywearing. For those who are new to this game, let’s just say – it is very important. In fact, that is probably an understatement in my books. Currently there is a movement going on in Australia called Carrying On Campaign [...]
Baby loss grief brings up lots of things in your mind, and for me, it brings out a side of me I really don’t like and spend a lot of time trying to fight back, change and stuff back into a box. But I guess that’s something about grief, it’s not rational. No matter how [...]
I am holding her in my arms and its is so natural. She is nestling in between my breasts sleeping sweetly while my body automatically rocks back and forth. Rhythmically and gently we sway. And then my heart races, pounding. I look down and stare at her face. One… Two… Three… I pull at her [...]
Avery’s Casket, with my bear, some photos, some flowers. Casket open. It was Thursday morning. I woke after a restless night of sleep of tossing, and turning. My body was tired and sore, but my head was worse. It was late and I joined the family in the lounge room. Quiet chatter buzzed in competition [...]
It’s the first day of June. And I am due early July. That’s not a long way away. In fact, it is scarily close. I cannot believe that a baby that I longed for, wished for, dreamed for and tried for 3 and a half years to bring into being is a mere month-or-so away [...]
I’m 22 weeks now. I think. Oh, really, I don’t know. I’m due July sometime. That’s all I need to know. So anyways, this baby is growing. It’s got a head, a heart, some fingers and toes. Everything is in its place at the right size etc etc etc. And I feel so so so [...]
This blog is very much like me. Full of creative bursts where I blog and blog and blog, and then other moments where I struggle to even meet the self imposed deadlines. And it is not like I do not have the time – I have ample time to bash out a word or two [...]
Side View… Spine View Scary Freaky Frontal Eye View Teeny Tiny Finger View… Little Bear, meet the blogosphere. Blogosphere, meet Little Bear… Tara came along to see her little Brother/Sister on the screen. It took a while so she got bored in the end, but loved seeing the face and hands. 20-something weeks to go
It’s no secret I have wanted this pregnancy. 3 and a half years of trying, aching, crying, willing my body to hold on to that little bundle of cells. It’s been emotionally and physically draining, and I know some of my friends out there are still on the boat trying, riding every wave of joy [...]
I cannot believe that Christmas has been and gone, that the new year has started and 2011 is here. It’s frightfully crazy for more than one reason. So, a while back I alluded to the fact that Hespera’s Garden was just going to go back to being a blog by me. Nothing pretentious, nothing outrageous [...]
