Welcome to another post talking about menstruation. Mine. So if you need to avert your eyes, please go ahead. I woke up yesterday morning, headed to the loo like most people do first thing, did my stuff and then I wiped. And I saw it.  Mottled red on the toilet paper, my bleed had arrived. [...]

My heart is aching. It is getting harder to open my mind to the thoughts that are hiding just behind the surface. I want to feel them and experience them.  I want them to go away and never come back.  I want both in the same breath. My world is not longer feeling foggy. Everything [...]

(but should I feel guilty about not feeling guilty?) She pushes buttons. Lots of buttons. And while I feel I have messed her up in unimaginable ways, I am not going to feel guilty. Or at least, try to! We have been through a really rough time.  Our world has been turned upside down.  I [...]

My stomach is numb.  Physically and emotionally (can a stomach have emotions?) numb. I am sure I did not have this numbness with Tara after her caesarean.  I am sure that while I had little feeling in the direct incision area, the rest of my stomach was fine in regards to actual feeling. But this [...]