The nausea, the emotional rollercoaster, the headache. Sore boobs and ready tears.  All signs – good signs – that my baby is thriving. —————————– That bundle of dread in my chest drops into my stomach and my heart takes on a mind of its own. I look, over and over and over again.  There is [...]

I am in a safe place, a place where I am loved and supported.  And yet it still gets awkward. I have to mention his name to new faces, to tell them who I am.  They have heard of me, of course.  My dearest friends are part of this circle, and they have all had [...]

I’ve been slack with Wordless Wednesday and Thankful Thursday.. but catching up with Things I know /Flog Ya Blog Friday… Today I know a few things, but there is only one I am going to talk about. Today I know it has been one year since I discovered Avery was in my womb and in [...]

One year ago today I started my last menstrual bleed. The start of the cycle where Avery was conceived. Because of infertility (PCOS etc), my cycles were very irregular, so I kept track.  I had to. Avery was conceived on the 16th of October 2010.  28th of October is when I peed on a stick. [...]

I once had another blog where I talked about my Spidey Sense.  By since this is a new blog, with new people, I thought I should explain. You see, I have this knack.  This unbelievable knack for knowing someone is pregnant.  I have known when particular people are pregnant, or going to be (waving to [...]

Dear Avery. It’s been two months. How the hell did we make it here – to two months?  Just saying that makes my heart shatter.  It should not be this way. So much has happened in those 2 months – 9 whole weeks. Tara has lost more teeth, holidays have been booked, doctors have been [...]

Self Portraits – 37 weeks. Playing along at My Little Drummer Boys – a day late!

It’s the first day of June.  And I am due early July.  That’s not a long way away.  In fact, it is scarily close. I cannot believe that a baby that I longed for, wished for, dreamed for and tried for 3 and a half years to bring into being is a mere month-or-so away [...]

I don’t have a lot of mojo at the moment.  It’s a bit hard to be really chatty here when all I want to do is sleep with no pain for a wee while. This pregnancy is testing me in many ways.  Mentally, physically, emotionally.  I find I am super hormonal, super angry and irrational, [...]

and no motivation to do it. It is Wordless Wednesday today, but I figured since I have been slack I should do a proper post.  The thing is, I’m not feeling great today, my brain feels like mush, I am tired, shattered even.  I cannot even explain it. Well, some of it is thanks to [...]